An uncomfortable card from Rebecca Campbell’s ‘Work Your Light’ oracle cards. The blurb on this card speaks of ‘allowing what is falling away to tumble and fall’ so you can ‘rebuild your home on solid ground with mighty foundations’ – it guides the reader to let go as ‘the sooner you let go, the sooner the rebirthing will occur’.
Well it’s now midway through 2021, and much has fallen. My previous blog feels somewhat nonsensical to me now as so much has changed. It’s like all that is not meant to be in my life for me to fulfil my highest purpose has ‘crumbled’. The part-time work triangle I detailed in it is no longer.
In the ‘best woman’s’ speech I said at our wedding (it was important to me to speak up publicly and represent the feminine as a woman entering marriage, I look back with great pride that I did and I hope more women do), I declared that the universe had made a fool of me and, retrospectively, I was so glad that it did. Aged 17, I vowed under the moon never to go out with Ed de Quincey. And there I was marrying him aged 32. The moon is fickle. And it’s done it again.
How to explain? (And I want to be brief this time!!!) Well, in short, I’ve had a series of unfortunate events much like the Lemony Snickett series – at times it did indeed feel like some sort of Count Olaf character has been ‘out to get me’…
It started with contracting coronavirus just after Christmas, having the most harrowing fourteen days waiting it out and staying strong, concerned it had somehow been passed on to my mother-in-law. Something worked as all was well. My mum-in-law says she couldn’t have got through without me and the strength I willed into us all – all I can say is it was a ridiculously intense, raw, surreal start to the year when the outside world was suspended for us as the snow fell.
I’m certain remembering this angel card and the attitude of laughing to relieve even the most difficult situations helped us stay afloat as we connected daily in the evening via facebook messenger and it’s ‘funny faces’ option which I think quite literally was a life saver!
I have a print out of this card on my noticeboard – it’s come up for me as a card many times since the beginning of 2020. ‘Animal Archangel’ cards by Diana Cooper again, whose work has been a wonderful help in keeping going as the donkey unicorn I am – eee aww to you too!